People don’t see my pain, they only see me smiling. But God knows that deep down inside, I’m crying. Infidelity has left me feeling defeated. Robbed of joy and peace, I feel so so mistreated. I’ve been lied to so many times, nothing seems genuine. I’m forever scarred, because of my husband’s sin. I need God to take away this anger. How could he betray me to sleep with a complete stranger? To forgive and step forward, it’s what I must choose. But instead I’m drowning in sorrow, and I can’t seem to move. If love conquers all, then Lord fill me up. I need you to intervene because I feel like giving up. I’m grieving the life I once knew, that wasn’t filled with tears. But even that wasn’t real, because he was dishonest for so many years. I can’t trust him, but God I trust you. Please guide me in the right direction, and give me a life that’s renewed. The thoughts of what he did, torment me day and night. It’s mentally exhausting, I have no strength left to fight. Sometimes I just want to run away. But God says, “Persevere, don’t quit, just stay.” I question how I”ll ever make it through, but then I remind myself that God’s promises are true. I’m commanded to grant him mercy and grace, but God it’s so hard to even look him in the face. My spirit sees him as a changed man. But my flesh says, “How could you? I don’t understand!” God please pick up the pieces from my shattered heart. Help me to believe my marriage can still have a fresh start. I feel so broken, I’m desperate for emotional healing. Help me to love, despite what I’m feeling. Everything will work out because God has a perfect plan. I will endure the pain, and for my marriage, I’ll continue to stand.